I'm so proud of me today! I'm tired (again) but soooo proud.
As an undiagnosed dyslexic I tend to read things very slowly. I also tend to reread a lot of things to make certain that I read a sentence or paragraph correctly. (That slows me down even further!) I’ve spent years being jealous of people who could pick up a book and read it quick as a flash. (Mostly you Alias: Phrixus, you and your genius ways!! Not only can you pick up a damn book and read it faster than anyone I know… You could do a five page book report, with quotes and all, without the book... From Memory. NOT THE KIND OF PERFORMANCE I LIKE FOLLOWING AS THE SECOND CHILD!!!)
“O yeah, it only took me a day or so to read that…” (That phrase usually makes me want to scream!)
I‘ve spent my life in the shadow of brilliant readers. First, I was just trying to keep up… then I was trying to be just as wickedly clever… but finally, now, I’m just striving to attain their intellectual status. Sucks when 99.999% of you closest relatives are the smartest people you’ve ever met! (And I’ve met a lot of people! (Hell, I married one of the only people I’ve ever known that could rival Phrixus in intelligence. (I’m a glutton for punishment!)))
But, for the last four years I’ve been retraining myself to except me for me. To not care how I measure up against others, but how I measure in personal growth and change. Now, I'm aware of how I feel, what I want, and who I want to be! …I want to be a person who says, “That book was great and it only took me a day or so to read it.”
Well folks, on Tuesday I picked up a book I’ve been waiting to read for the last six months. It's of the paranormal genre and is 430 pages long.
- I started reading at 6:30 pm Tuesday
- I stopped at 12:00 am
- I started reading again at 5:30 pm Wednesday
- I stopped for and hour to eat dinner with Damon
- And... at 2:00 am this morning… I FINISHED THE BOOK!
I’m the person I want to be! I can honestly say “I read that (430 page) book in a day or so and it was wonderful!” (Actually it was more like 13 hours, but who’s counting!!) My point is, I measure up to where I want to be! Today, I’m proud not just of me, but to be me!
As an undiagnosed dyslexic I tend to read things very slowly. I also tend to reread a lot of things to make certain that I read a sentence or paragraph correctly. (That slows me down even further!) I’ve spent years being jealous of people who could pick up a book and read it quick as a flash. (Mostly you Alias: Phrixus, you and your genius ways!! Not only can you pick up a damn book and read it faster than anyone I know… You could do a five page book report, with quotes and all, without the book... From Memory. NOT THE KIND OF PERFORMANCE I LIKE FOLLOWING AS THE SECOND CHILD!!!)
“O yeah, it only took me a day or so to read that…” (That phrase usually makes me want to scream!)
I‘ve spent my life in the shadow of brilliant readers. First, I was just trying to keep up… then I was trying to be just as wickedly clever… but finally, now, I’m just striving to attain their intellectual status. Sucks when 99.999% of you closest relatives are the smartest people you’ve ever met! (And I’ve met a lot of people! (Hell, I married one of the only people I’ve ever known that could rival Phrixus in intelligence. (I’m a glutton for punishment!)))
But, for the last four years I’ve been retraining myself to except me for me. To not care how I measure up against others, but how I measure in personal growth and change. Now, I'm aware of how I feel, what I want, and who I want to be! …I want to be a person who says, “That book was great and it only took me a day or so to read it.”
Well folks, on Tuesday I picked up a book I’ve been waiting to read for the last six months. It's of the paranormal genre and is 430 pages long.
- I started reading at 6:30 pm Tuesday
- I stopped at 12:00 am
- I started reading again at 5:30 pm Wednesday
- I stopped for and hour to eat dinner with Damon
- And... at 2:00 am this morning… I FINISHED THE BOOK!
I’m the person I want to be! I can honestly say “I read that (430 page) book in a day or so and it was wonderful!” (Actually it was more like 13 hours, but who’s counting!!) My point is, I measure up to where I want to be! Today, I’m proud not just of me, but to be me!
Cue glowing smile!
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