New Research...

So, I’ve been working on my current series of books since Dec 2006. It hasn’t been easy and the blame for that definitely falls on me! (Fear is a bitch with a soprano voice and liars lips!) I kept finding reasons to hold back instead of charging ahead. So, by the time I felt like I was ready to sprint ahead with a true foundation under me, my ideas felt more like old dreams instead of the new visions. (Crazy thing is, I’m a recklessly creative person, I never hold back. So I don’t’ know what the hell stopped me this time!)

More recently I’ve been trying very hard to get back to that place; that magic idea stop. (Again, it hasn’t been easy!) I’m the kind of writer that feels everything! And if the right energies not there… then the writing is forced and IT SUCKS! (Eloquent, I know.) So, how do a light a fire under the ass of this project? (Cause, I'm damn close to tapping-out, if you know what I mean.)

BUT TODAY… Today I had this entirely new idea! Bonus: I already have most of the research materials I’ll need. AND (My Grandparents are going to LOVE this… The Bible is going to be one of my go to resources.) Three guesses what this stories about!?! :)

Anyway, this point is twofold:

1. Maybe I let my own fear KILLED my first series or maybe it’s just asleep, I'm not sure yet. But what I do know is that kicking the hell out of it isn’t fixing anything and it’s making me miserable! So, I’m just gonna keep the faith that that wonderful idea will ignite again someday and when it does… I’ll be happy to bask in the glory of Elithdun once more!

2. For now, THIS TIME, with this very bright, very shiny, new idea... I just don’t care what anyone thinks! NOT what you say! NOT what he does! I’m riding this idea as far as it will take me!

Dear God, I hope I'm strong enough to hold on this time!